nineteen

  its been quite a awhile since i last wrote something here. things went pretty bad and good at the same time. although there isn't any clear status on what our relationship is. but im not confused anymore. i think im getting ready little by little on what may happen to us.

  right now, things went well. we're okay. i feel stable now. but im not even sure about it myself. i dont know how long will this last. everyday i have this feeling that one day all these good things will come to an end. im scared and powerless. im living each moment with you, cherishing and loving it. this is the only chance i have and i will keep it until the very last time.

  i think i already said everything to you. there's nothing left to say. you know how much precious you are to me. its up to you to do whatever decision is left undone. i think if we go our separate ways i wont feel any regrets since i did the best i can....

eighteen

what happened to the bright girl u have met before?
the one who makes you smile. tease you until you cannot say anything at all. the one who makes your day brighter. the one whom you liked so much. the warm and kind hearted girl that makes your day complete.

what happened to her?
what happened to me?

seventeen

i dont exactly understand why its easy for me to write things when im in pain. but now as things get a little bit better its difficult for me. last night, when we were talking i wanted to tell you how i miss u, wanted to be sweet but i tried so hard to keep it to myself. it was my idea to be less sweeter to each other and i think it made me feel a little bit lighter. its too early to make conclusions, you were right that sometimes i worry too much of the future. so starting this time, i tried not to. i just try to think of other things which has greater possibility to come true than thinking about us being together. 

sixteen

i hope u wont find this blog...i really hope..coz this is the only place where i can be emo all i want...

fifteen

are u thinking of me?

did u miss me?

do u love me?

do u feel sad if u know im crying now?

are u sad?

can u really let me go?

coz i cant :(