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life sometimes turns the way you least expected it to.

it would be an understatement if i say i didn't see it coming. i felt it but my strong determination to convince myself that everything is "normal" made the situation more surprising, unexpectedly-lovingly-good. it seemed like  the boulder stuck inside my heart was finally hauled after a very long time. everything felt so surreal. it may sound like cheesy and cliche but it was like a dream come true. YOU ARE A DREAM COME TRUE. every moment that i'm with you makes me feel peaceful, happy, secured, and loved. YOU ARE SO GOOD BY SIMPLY BEING YOURSELF. your smile overwhelms and melts my heart so much that all i want to do is hug you so tight and never let go. whenever im away from you i feel so much inspired to do something yet i yearned for your presence to be beside me. i love you more and more and more each day but i couldn't say it. i want you to be with me forever. i want you to stay and become MORE of who you are in my life now. i love you so much and it gets deeper and deeper as time goes by.

five

i wish for a moment that you will be mine. being with you seems to be surreal. i feel happiness, acceptance, love and peace. what more can i ask for? yet reality strikes back and reminds me that things won't go on this way. it has limitations, facts and the chance that i may totally misunderstood the kindness you've given to me. i wish i could tell how i wanted to hug you and to be hug by you. but i can't, i shouldn't and i mustn't. so here i am, cherishing every moment with you. the more time we spent together, the deeper i fall for you. this may be one sided love and im not yet ready to let you go. i can't let go.........

four

SHIT DOES HAPPEN and we don't have a choice but to deal with it.

three

krisler and her clothes

dressing up is one thing i really like to do. so i decided to take accounts on the outfits that i have worn and put it in this page. krisler and her clothes. check it out yo!!!

two

seriously, i need to go back to writing. my writing skill is de-te-rio-ra-ting. the more i think, the less thoughts will come out. is it because i can verbally express what's inside my small  brain? i used to be so good in writing. i miss those times wherein my ideas will naturally flow in my brain. i was full of ideas before. i was creative. i was. i was. i was. i was. but what about now?

i lost my life track now. i just keep on going not knowing where to go and what lies ahead. i accept and accept what is being given to me. ACCEPT and DON'T COMPLAIN, that's how i live today. MAKING THE BEST of everything. but i feel tired. i feel greedy. i feel aggressive. i feel that its time to change.

one

LOVE. is. SHIT.

just kidding. :D

LOVE makes the world go round. LOVE makes a person inspired. LOVE is good. LOVE is LOVE. and LOVE SUCKS!!. im not bitter. i BELIEVE in love but i don't believe it will happen to me. i've known two guys whose going steady for more than 6 yrs. WOW!!. i can't grasp the whole idea of how did they stay that long. and i thought good guys are extinct nowadays but they are still alive!! too bad i couldn't have them. i want to have one but as what endangered species are, its hard to have one of them...........